dedi-cated my life
rededicated my, existence to fitness
trying to exercise - my memories
when my effort to be better sighs
let them never say i never strived
eyes closed, wind blows, windows shake petrified
like muscles struggle crumble from the reps, the size
rocks being thrown, my home mocks whats left inside
raindrops, the garden steams up insecticide,

i feel like, i might be on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one
i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one

ladybugs, fire ants, no spider webs survive
this insectoid genocide the back drop
evergreen tomatoes, its seems they'll never ripe
red as the cannons that light up the harvest skies
and we're all on borrowed time, i barter mine
i trade, i argue, so often, its just the cost of pride
later the children sleep deep with heavy eyes
run in circles chase each other, i feel the pressure rise

i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one
i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one

it cuts in me, i push i breathe
i must not leave, sanctuary
it cuts in me, i push i breathe
i must not leave, sanctuary

i want to be comfortably
destructive, motive, so drug-free
i want to be, comfortably
destructive, motive, so drug-free

the weight is thick, the music dark, my mood is melancholy
the church bells are calling, wedding or another fallen
another dream another segment one more leg
another bite another scratch and one more egg
i try to kill the feelin, no one's as real as me
as unreal as i've been, thin webs of self-deceit
i'm not a good person, i'm not a pure being
i'm just another arachnid pulling your strings

i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one
i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one

left from her childhood, so many things rot
lost to anthills, family portraits and family plots
the dark attic, the basement centipede sentries fought
a battle for decorations, small nations swallow up
i never weep over sacrifice nor memories
it's like mosquitoes take chase to catch the scent of me,
i sweat, i bleed, my chest burns like extermination
the smoke'll rise cockroaches thrive through the annihilation

i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one
i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one

it cuts in me, i push i breathe
i must not leave, sanctuary
it cuts in me, i push i breathe
i must not leave, sanctuary

i want to be comfortably
destructive, motive, so drug-free
i want to be, comfortably
destructive, motive, so drug-free

matchboxes turn to caskets, and shoe boxes mold
checks fade, dust falls 'cross giant centerfolds
another rep another set feel my depression lull
the air's cold to scorpions use to desert snow
wasps, bees, dragonflies, and all the fireflies
bursts of energy light the skies, as we romanticize
a spider army marches on, we all fall in line
left left left left, right right right right

i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one
i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one

i feel my legs give, i push the weight in
i lose my place in, the everyday its
too much take its, you can't relate its
one of the greatest, of the forsaken
of the forbidden, since our creation
one of the masses, under the nations
one of the ways home, from our betrayed hope
and one just wonderin, where my days go

i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one
i feel like, i might be the on-ly one
and if i am, then i'm gon be a lonely one
i feel like…